4 years ago

4 years ago today Bens dad Bill passed away. On Sept 5th 2002 we took him to the ER to get looked over because we knew something was really wrong, while his regular MD just RX'd motrin (i wont got into his reg MD) so after talking to the nurse and the Er Dr they sent him for a CT of the brain were they found 7 tumors. His Lymphoma had come back after 12 yrs and showed up in the brain. He was hospitalized and eventually got to come home on hospice. Ben took a leave of absence from work and everyone took care of Bill. I was 6 weeks away from delivering Kaitlen. Bill fought and made it for kailtens arrival on Oct 18th. I even told him on the 17th when i was going home to go to bed that maybe tonight she'd come. and she did, i went into labor at around midnight. He always touched my stomach and sang to her. He called her Matilda, which is were she gets one of her middle names. he loved to hold her. He could only move his rt arm and would actually squeeze your hand so hard that you couldnt stand it, but when we put her in his arm he was so gentle and wouldnt want to give her back. We'd have to leave her blanket with him so he thought he was still holding her. He held on untill the early morning hours of Nov 3rd and died with her blanket. It's hard to believe it's been 4 yrs. He is still very much missed (of course). Cody still talks about him and his chair and the cookies they'd eat. The shows they'd watch and yep, Kaitlen talks about Pop too. she knows who he is. i imagine He's been watching over Miss Matilda this whole time. Boy would he have loved to get to know Matthew and William. Football would be shining in his eyes.